100 Books Challange

A Reader is like a traveling nomad, We keep traveling for the search of beautiful words and stories and writers are our traven, we halt when we reach a traven and get drunk on the Author writings, and after losing our soberness we start traveling for a new traven. A reader is a kind of a nomad that is free of a nationality, religion and culture, infact a reader and a writer are an anti-tribe; a tribeless tribe of their own, connected through words and dreams. and the books my friend, they also travel the world, far and wide… Stories need no visas, no passports, perpetual nomads are they as well. Stories transcend all sorts of imaginary boundaries and cultural ghettoes—national, religious, ethnic.

I have been planning to take a challenge of Reading 100 books in 2-3 years and then share the journey of my transformation after reading those books. it will be a kind of a Pilgrimage where I will lose my self and get a hold of my new transformed self. I don’t have my 100 books list decided yet and nor do I have any particulars writers in mind, I will just enjoy my journey along the way starting off from the Paulo Coelho novel the zahir, which i still haven’t bought yet. Down the line I will try to find some of the Hafez books (the Persion sufi Poet), Read some Rumi, Read some history and get drunkard of some of the fictions. So Please if you have your fav list of writers and books, please feel free to share and maybe if you pass along the extra copy of the book that you have read and not in the mood to ever re-read it again and found it worth the read you are welcome to share the book with me 😛 it will save the lazy reader like me save some time finding the book in the bookstore. and Also if you know some good bookstores in Islamabad/Pindi please do share with me. So by any means you be a part of my Pilgrimage and may be transforming me will transform you.

(And the Inner barney Stinson inside me says “Challange Accepted”.)


I still Haven’t found What I am Looking for

Each day I feel like I am not making the most of my life, I am not doing something for which I was designed, and I am missing on the most important aspect of my life. of all the given luxuries in my life, I feel like I am wasting them, My youth, My efforts, and my soul. Ever since I read Victor Frankl’s “Man Search for Meaning”, I am consistently In a quest for searching my meaning of life.
I personally Believe that the Lord who is the light of the Heavens and the Earth Molded us to serve him, and we can only serve him in the best way if we fulfill our purpose of life, and if we don’t there is no salvation for us. People that knew their Purpose of life, they lived the life at ease because their hearts were at peace knowing that in the Kingdom come they will be elevated for living their life with a purpose. For all I know is that I can’t stop my self from quoting the glorious verses (ayats) from the Quran that has touched my Life.

“Indeed, in the creation of the heavens and the earth and the alternation of the night and the day are signs for those of understanding. Who remember Allah while standing or sitting or [lying] on their sides and give thought to the creation of the heavens and the earth, [saying], “Our Lord, You did not create this aimlessly; exalted are You [above such a thing]; then protect us from the punishment of the Fire.” (Surah Al-Imran 190-191)  

These Ayats also moved Prophet Mohammad Pbuh in awe of its nature, When these were revealed at Mohammad Pbuh he was lost in the glory of these ayats and he, after the ayats were revealed, had to offer prayers to the God as a sign of Gratitude for revealing the words of eternal wisdom on to him. So coming back to where I was, these ayats have two keywords of my interest, One is salvation and the other is the Purpose. Only through fulfilling our purpose we can achieve our Salvation.

Each one of us is created to serve a special Purpose Because God doesn’t create anything aimlessly. Each one of us in unique and Special in two ways, One the God created him and molded him in his image and the second one is God has created each one of us with a special Purpose. Some of my friends have found their meaning of life in Photography, Some in Graffiti and Murals, Some in Art and Painting, Some in football, Some in Love but as for me, I Still Haven’t Found What I am looking for.

I have climbed the highest mountains
I have run through the fields

I have run, I have crawled
I have scaled these city walls
These city walls

But I still haven’t found
What I’m looking for.
But I still haven’t found
What I’m looking for.

I have kissed honey lips
Felt the healing in her fingertips
It burned like fire
(I was) burning inside her.

I have spoke with the tongue of angels
I have held the hand of a devil
It was warm in the night
I was cold as a stone.

But I still haven’t found
What I’m looking for.
But I still haven’t found
What I’m looking for.

I believe in the Kingdom Come
Then all the colors will bleed into one
Bleed into one.
But yes, I’m still running.

But I still haven’t found
What I’m looking for.
But I still haven’t found
What I’m looking for.


BTW if you have found your Meaning of Life, please do share it with me, I will love to read about your Special purpose of life and maybe it gets me inspired to find me mine 🙂
(Note: The Lyrics I shared above are from the U2 Song, I still haven’t found What I am looking for, released in 1987)

Stories of the Stars

Me and Stars have both many things in common. We both contain a universe in our selves and we both converse with other beings only if you listen to us carefully. So having many things in common we both have become best friends.

Looking at the dark naked sky under the moonlight is the best thing one can do at night. and These stars are very delicate and picky. They won’t share their stories with the common public, especially with the metropolitan people, maybe it’s their trust issue with them. So they only talk to those who give them their all ears, away from the hustle and bustle, away from the Noise and all the lights, then they will shine for you, share their untold stories. and the Amazing thing is that they are the best historians out there, they shared the sky with the likes of Aristotle, Plato, Socrates, Moses Maimonides, Rumi, Michael Angelo, Mimar Sinan, Leonardo Da Vinci, Galileo, Bruno, Francos Bacon, and the list is never-ending. So ask them how Pathogras and Ptolemy were their best friends, and how Aristotle was all wrong in understanding them and once they were hurt they took centuries to become friends with human beings until Galileo restore the relations. They are spectators of human beings, to them, the earth looks like Colosseum and they see us as a Gladiators. Clapping and standing ovations for the Best of the Human beings.

And With the approaching of a new dawn, they say their farewell until the next night when the darkness reappears they have stories to share from the other side of the world.

Machine Learning, Block Chain and the New Future



We read and Rejoiced the Famous Exodus of the Prophet Moses Pbuh, but the near future Exodus might not be such rejoicing in fact very traumatic for many and especially for those who will be migrating in this Exodus of the Block Chain. As the world of Computer Science evolved our life became luxurious, with the introduction of the computer we 1st rejoiced at the games such as Prince of Persia, Doom and many more. Then came the evolution of the Internet and with it a time came we all said Hello to the Social Media. I can’t imagine my life without my laptop and Internet. And then a few years back there was a huge demand for the Cloud Computing and with it came the Big Data and it Data Sciences. and Now the Tech has so advanced and the Artifical Intelligence, Machine Learning (MLP) and Block Chain we have reached a Point where Dubai is struggling to remove the Human Labors with the Robots by 2020, So an Exodus is due there. But don’t be shocked to read it now as its nothing new it was always on the way because Deep Blue was the 1st Chess computer who defeated a Human Chess Champion in a fair and square Chess Battle way back in 1996.

So right now many are stuck in the Paradox of Machine Learning. If you take the Victor Frankl perspective he says that a Man finds the purpose of his life through his work, and then there are many people who used to make a living by driving a cab, delivering a Pizza or doing data entry, such jobs will be replaced by the Artifical Intelligence, and these people will not only be jobless but they will also lose the purpose of their Life and in future you will see many depressed people because of this. But then you take Aristotle Perspective, who came way before the victor frankly, even before the Jesus Christ and stated that Humans are made to do extraordinary things, he said that the thinkers, the rulers should not do ordinary chores that have little utilization of a brain and more utilization of the Muscles, he believed that such tasks dull the Human Brain, so from his Perspective when robots will be doing the simple tasks Human will be a King of his own, each one of us has to do the thinking.

I don’t know if you have worked on tools such as Adobe Illustrator and Wacom Tablet etc, designing is something unique and it requires creativity, and a Computer on its own has an IQ of Zero, it can’t think like a Human Brain, so dear arts students don’t be afraid of losing your jobs right now, in fact art is the only thing that relaxes a human brain, and if you ever read about Plato he designed a curiculm to achieve the utopia which stated that the child in his first ten years will only learn art and Music as it nurtures the heart and brain to think calmly and smoothly. And if you followed LinkedIn top jobs, UI/UX (User Interface /User Experience) was the most searched skill by the Industries. and in the age of Artificial Intelligence and Machine Learning when the daily routine tasks will be done by your robots, you can be a Philosopher and can have a lot of time to think about the Life, and its due and maybe work a Little making this world a Utopia.

Utopia of Nalaik Panda

If you have known about Plato then you must know about his Utopia. The thing that Inspires me about human beings is that they always dream about the impossible and then try achieving the Impossible. Plato was no different in thinking about the Impossible, He thought about an Ideal world where there is harmony and called it Utopia. He didn’t just dreamt only but placed a simple solution to achieve the utopia, and his resolution was
” There will be no end to the troubles of states, or of humanity itself, till Thinkers  become Rulers or Rulers Become Thinkers ” (Plato)


The statement I quoted above of Plato is from his famous work ” The Republic”. Just like Plato yours, Nalaik Panda is no Different, if Plato was determined to resolve the issues of the Democracy then I am determined to resolve the Issues of the Education System. Just because I am a Nalaik Panda doesn’t mean I hate education, I hate the process, the system. The Modern Day education has minimized to give us Facts instead of the Understanding of the things, Their true purpose, We go to School and we merely learn the facts and then they judged us based upon the memory we have about the learned facts. What about learning the true purpose of the things, the fruit of wisdom is knowing the reality of things. and this is Prophet Mohammad S.A.W used to supplicate

O Allah! Show me the reality of all things as it (really) is”

So Nalaik Panda had an epiphany after reading Plato, and I dreamt about the ideal School with where learning is fun and there is no such thing as exams. and to achieve such a Utopia my solution is very simple

“There will be no end to the troubles of Education till all the Nalaik Panda become the Mentors or the Mentors become the Nalaik Panda”



Life is a Curse if you are a younger Sibling

God Loves us all because God is all loving, he is Al-Wadood and Life is the greatest Blessing only if you are the Eldest Sibling in the Family. God Loves us all and those whom he hates, He makes them the younger Siblings. Now many Elder Siblings will disagree with my statement here but I am about to share just 7 moments that will make you say ‘chup kr ja pagle ab kia rulaega ?”

1. Mama, PaPa, and Parenthood. 
How every new weds crave to have a baby of their own, to have someone to call them “Papa, Mama” with love.They will crave to have their Babies 1st words as “Papa or Mama” or will fight each other that no his 1st word will be Mama or no his 1st word will be papa but their 1st born baby 1st words will be instead “googagoo” and this word will not even make any sense but parents will go gaga on that. And when their second or younger kid learns to say Mama/Papa for the 1st time, it’s not a big deal because he/she is the 2nd one to call them that and their 1st one learned to call them that years ago.
As every new couple craves for the Baby, the 1st one clears their doubts that yes their genitals can produce offsprings and 2nd one doesn’t clear any doubts or gives them any satisfaction, in fact, the 2nd one and younger ones may be the consequence of the unavailability of contraceptive Products.



2. Kids 1st Birthday
So now the 2nd happiness after being called the Mama and pappa in the parent’s life is when their 1st kid turns One year. so they will throw out a Massive party for their 1st one, Will have every moment captured. The balloons, the birthday hats, and the Birthday candle. They will celebrate their 1st kid as they have won the Champions League Trophy. and When the 1st birthday of the Younger one will came guess what, He will have the old blown Candle from the Birthday of the 1st one, the one had the moist of the 1st kid all over it because the 1st one at that time didn’t know how to blow a candle so he/she all spat out on the candle and there was no Candlewick remained by the time it was blown away. and the same old Ballons from the birthday party of their 1st ones.



3. I don’t wanna ride your Bicycle
Ok This is an alteration of the Eminem song ” I wanna ride your bicycle” feat Skylar grey.  When a Kid gets Older the 1st thing he/she dreams about is having a Brand New Bicycle of their own and their dream is granted to them most probably at the age of 3-5. So When 2nd one is 3-5 years old and daydreaming about having a Bicycle of his own he is brought down back to earth when he is given the second-hand puncture cycle of his Sibling. To which even Skylar grey would sing ” I don’t wanna Ride your Bicycle”.


4. The 1st Day of School
All kids are silly, Yes they are, that is why they all dream about going to School or pick up fights at home with their parents to send them to school so they can make new friends. and after Admitting their 1st Born to School, the Parents too will be excited about two reasons, one to see their young one going to School for the 1st time in new Uniform with a School bag, Mom will be happy to have the lunch box prepared for her 1st born for the 1st time. and 2nd reason will be to have some room for sex little they know that room will create their 2nd ones.
and then there comes the 2nd one, Now grown up, Ready to go on his 1st day of School, Wakes up in the Morning and guess what ? he is dressed up in the old torn clothes of the 1st one in which the 1st one already peed and pooped on. The 2nd one is already feeling shitty after wearing the shitty clothes of his elder sibling but then he gets shit on his face when he is giving the 2nd hand Copies and books with the ugly doodles drawn over and torn pages by the 1st one.


5. The Happiness of Eid 
The most wanted and joyous thing in Life is “Eiddi”. I will say Money doesn’t make you happy but Eiddi does. If you want to count the blessings of your Lord I say Count the Eidi, the More Eiddi you have the more Blessed you are and the 1st Ones are the Most blessed by the Lord, in Desi and Asian Cultures logic the Eldest one not only deserves the Eiddi but also Deserves it the most as he/she is the Eldest and has more needs then the rest of the siblings so will get it the most from every one. But wait the funny thing is that 2nd one will be told you are young and still don’t know the counting so your Elder Sibling will be the incharge of your money and with that the 2nd one will get the Pat on the head.

6. The Happiness of having your own Ride
I bet you must have dreamt about going to College or your University on your own bike or car at the 1st day. This is what most kids are sold out to their parents that if you study hard and get into a decent college, I will gift you a nice ride. So Parents do buy their kids their 1st Ride. now the youngest one will see his elder sibling driving his own car and going to College, This will motivate him to study harder and get his ass into more decent college and finally when he gets the admission and the day arrives to Go to on his 1st day, A loud Voice is streamed in the Home ” Barey Baita do drop your Lil sibling to College on your way”.


7. Choti Eid Baad me Hoti ha
ohh This is the most favorite part, Despite being deprived of all the things the Younger one will end up getting into better College, getting better grades, getting a Better Degree and a Better job. So the most awaited part of the life has almost finally came. yes the Shadi ke laddo Moment. The Moment when the young one will finally say to his parents ” oh Amma ab tu meri job b lag gai ha, ab tu meri shadi karwa den” and he will be again brought back to reality with these words ” Abi tu tumhare Bare bhai ki Shadi ni hoi tumhara tu sab se akhir me number ha” and if you are the most youngest one then I say well you have to wait until your hair turns grey, because Pakistani Parents don’t just make two babies, they make a cricket team and in Cricket the 11th No bastman comes the last for batting and if the overs are up there is no batting at all.



and All this attitude towards the Younger siblings kinda makes sense, because the world works with one rule “ First Come First Serverd !“.

Curse of Nalaik Panda

Dear readers, you won’t believe me and you are to never blame me for being a Nalaik Panda after hearing this.

Out of the Love of Science and the astronomy, I bought the “Brief history of time”the day before yesterday and Next day the Writer, Stephen Hawking Dies. My sorry If I knew my reading Powers believe me I would have never Read him knowing it will get him killed. and knowing that I can kill people by reading their books, I would have read all the course books during my School time.

Now that the Stephan Hawking has died there is no further harm in reading this book “Brief history of time”. The important thing I want to point out is that my timeline is filled with the love of People for the Stephen Hawking, even religious and humanities people are paying him Tribute, and the reason is very simple. He was a man of a Purpose, if you become a man of purpose, you will die with love of people.