16th December the day hell was Raised

We always wanted our University Fast to be off during public holidays but fast always remained open.we knew the day it will be closed it will be hell of a day. So it happened a hell was raised on 16th December .
Me and my friends were Studying for next day exam and Mom came to told us 4 kids are dead in Army Public School , and it was 12pm me and my friend thought ok it will be under control now. and we kept studying. By 1.30 pm when we took brake for prayers and i went to my mom she was crying. i asked what happened and she said 100 plus kids are dead. Oh God 100? i couldn’t believe my self what just happened. So we went for prayers and when we came back we just could’not study anymore. When it was 3pm i heard now the situation is under control when 150 are slain brutally. #ThankyouRaheelShareef . All the peshawar was Closed. Those kids who returned from their schools mom are hugging them kissing them and thanking God for the safety of their kids. That day i saw every mother losing their mind and crying. Some one were crying because they lost their kids, others were crying because they lost their minds.
A brave kid survived from brutal Terrorists by playing Dead and taking a bullet but not screaming in pain because if he does they will shoot it in his head. So he lived by playing dead. How much strength a lil kid will have to take a bullet and not screaming,not even blinking because he knows if he blinks he would be dead in a blink of an eye.
Weak are human being, all night every one was just saying to him/her self that this thing didn’t happen. Let me undo it. let me rewind it. let me fix it. but we can’t . we don’t have any power. we are so useless but to God we are so valuable that he created Angels and jinns but called us weak ones the best of creations. and the best in us was shown on that day. at 4 pm all Peshawar Roads were jammed. because every one came out of their homes to give bloods to the victims. the hospitals were filled and their blood banks were fulled with in a hour. and they requested people to go back they have taken more than enough blood it is not required any more. but people were crying and saying please take it we want to help (Knowing how helpless we are we wanted to help. this makes us the best creation.)
Since i don’t believe in burning candles in memory of the victims or doing  a rally. So i wrote this post not forgetting what little kids went through that day.

Ap ko mujse q Muhabat ha ?

Episode 2.



Aj Subah uthey hi Bhooley ka dil kuch udas tha. usne fajr ki namaz qaza ki thi shayad isleye. Muh hath doh ker aur begair nashta kiye wo janwaron k sath apne roz mara ke kam per nikal para. wo kisi udasi me khud se ulja hua kuch sawal krne laga .
” me kia hun? aik mitti ka dair jo aik haqeer se khoon ke lothre se ban gya. Na muje koi Zuban ati ha dhang se. na me koi sainsdaan, na me koi shair, na me koi badshah, muje tu koi bhi ni janta is jahan me. yea janwar bhi na muje samjte han aur na me inko samaj sakta hun.  aur Jis jis k sath bhi dil lagaya usi ne mere dil ko dukhaya. sab ko yad krta hun laken muje koi yad ni rakhta. kisi ko mere hone ya na hone se koi farq ni parta. Ae Khuda muje ni pata tune muje q banaya, me ne tu tujse ni kaha tha ke muje bana. aur phr tune banaya bhi tu banaya muje ghaltiyon ka putla. laken banaya tune muje shoq se. han muje tu tujse mohabat ha laken wo muhabat tu isleye ha ke teri misal koi ni, tu sirf aik Wahid ha, Hamesha rahne wala ha, Kamil ha, har aik aib se pak ha, tere se tu har aik ko mohabat ho jae gi. laken muje ni samaj ata ke tune muje kis leye bana, jab tere pas kisi cheez ki kami ni, tere pas faraisthe han jo teri har hal me ibadat krne me lage rahte han. me tuje bhool jata hun, tere elawa har aik ko yad krta hun , tuje meri koi zaroorat nahi, laken phr bhi tu muje yad rakhta ha, aur mujse be inteha Muhabbat krta ha. muje ni samaj ati Ya Allah apko q itni Mohabbat ha mujse ? muje apni zindagi ka maqsad ni pata laken yea janta hun ke yea zindagani sirf teri Mohabbat ki waja se ha”

Aur phr tappakte howe ansoowon me  usne apni ulji hoi zindagi ka maqsad jan lia. Kabi Kabi Allah dukh bhi sakoon k leye deta ha. uski Ajeeb si Mohabbat ha.

Help !

You were strangers with people before you become friends with them. and it is the worst thing in life if you again become strangers with them. It really hurts. but the most tragic part is that it is only you who gets hurt over it. The other ones don’t feel anything for losing you.
They just want to hurt you and you are hurting more for seeing them having no feelings for you. Now the ones you once loved are turned into a zombie, who just want to hurt you with no feelings of regret for doing so. and then every body you once loved turned into the same zombie and you end up being the only Human being in the city of Zombies. and then you release that the problem is not the zombies any more but you yourself for not becoming a Zombie and still being a Human. and then you are just screaming for help and wishing from those zombies to come and hurt you and turn you into one of them.


My Memories Haunt me

The word for Humans in Arabic is ” Insan” which means two things, one is the ones who feel Love, unlike animals they don’t have love,like a mother snake would eat its egg inorder to survive, but a Human mother won’t do that. So humans have love, humanity is defined by Love. and the Other meaning of word ” insan ” is forgetful. Yes we Humans are forgetful . But Me operates bit Differently, i have a Strong Memory, like real real Strong memories. and the key to have a strong memory is living in the Moments. I live in the moment and connect that moment with the time and date and remember each and everything exactly. if a certain moment is not worth for me i won’t remember it and that is defined by the moments spend with Loved one. if Some one is Loved one to me and i have a happy or sad moment with them i will live in that moment and connect it with my memory and it will linger on my mind for ever.
Now this is my Special power and it can be a Curse some times. actually most of the times.  Actually ,Humans are not Loving any more, they are mean. they just come and go in my life. i get attached to them. and then they leave just like that. and then the worst part happens. Me trying so hard to forget them. like praying to Allah , ya Allah erase those memories from my mind. unlike computer where you just delete a file and recycle it and its gone for ever. but here its different. People just go out of my life but their memories don’t and they just make my nostalgic life gloomy. Yes i do believe that everything in life has a Purpose, people come and go to give us a lesson. and i never learnt my lesson. and even having a Strong Memory , I remember everything but keep on forgetting the one who gave me this ability to remember things. So this part makes me “Insan”. Who remember everything but forgets one that he is the only ONE not to be Remembered .

Allhamdulillah /Praise the Lord

You know life can be a mess sometimes a Total Disaster. A darkness where you Loses your hope and wishes for death. It can become a scary thing for you. A Constant rejection from People, no matter what you do they just don’t want you in their life. Then you feel like your Life is a total Failure. But Believe me your Life is still not the failure if you are Grateful to your Lord even in those conditions i tell you, your life is Beautiful ,no matter how Miserable it is ,if you are Thankful to Allah it is worth Living.
There are plenty people in this world who have everything , every one but don’t have those words of praise on their hearts and Tongues so i say their Life is Miserable, its a total waste. No matter what May life bring you, Just don’t let it take away the words of Gratitude from your heart for your Beloved the Lords of the Heavens and the Earth . Say Allhamdulillah even when you are rejected, even when you are humiliated, even when you are just facing a worst failure of your life . Say Allhamdulillah when you say Allhamdulillah because many people don’t say Allhamdulillah.

God Creation Vs Men Creation

Mankind has this insanity to follow the perfection and now matter how hard we try to achieve that perfection there is always a Room for Perfection. And this is not just limited to one field you will see the same examples every where. Talk about Fashion, Hair styles and Shoes , their trends keeps on changing, every once in a month some one tries to see a flaw in present one and brings up the new one, and after decades they will bring up the old fashion with few minor changes yet it will never be perfect. Body Building has been evolving since late 18th century yet it has never reached the perfection that is why there is Mr.Olympia Every year. Music is never perfect, that is why you see new trends in Music, eventually people get bored and try to bring up something new. 1st it was Classic, then Hippie, then it became hip hop, later it gave birth to Rock/Metal, then to Rap, then Punk was introduced and now its the era of Electro and Trance but then some thing new will take its place but your hearts won’t be satisfied with it.
Take video games for the same example. I remember playing them on Bricks game and Atari Game, later we switched to Nintendo , then we bought Sega, after some years we brought PC , in 9th grade i bought PS2, In University i bought Laptop by telling my Parents i want to study on it but actually i played games on it for 4 years since you all know me what Im. You see nothing was Perfect.
Now observe the Creation of God. He created the Heavens (Sky) and the earth in 6 days. He only says be and it is Done. You see the same sun in existence for  i don’t know how many years. Every thing in the universe it doesn’t need an upgrade. Imagine if the sun in the Solar System needed an upgrade for few days, or the Moon needed a restart or the software of the earth got crash or the whole software of the galaxy got hacked ? the same things has been existance since uncountable years and never needed any upgrade or needed a moment to pause ? and if there are certain loopholes seems to the human mind its our incapability to see the divine Wisdom in them. and if The Solar System will come to failure one day it will be only because God wanted it to and it has reached the certified time for which it was created. If God created a Sun like i Phone series and each year you will have to wait for the next better version of Sun but it will only be increased by One inch thats all, no much more enhancement in the light giving. and then only rich ones would get light outa it, Some would sell their kidneys or lose their virganity just to get a light for one year and then die next year.
And why we Humans try to reach the Perfection ? when animals don’t ? because Ali R.A said something Mystic, He (May Allah be pleased with him) said , Before coming to this world Our souls were with God, the Perfect one, and when we come into this world our souls make us cry for the separation from the Perfect one so that is Why Muslims are told to give “Call for the Prayer ” into the ears of a infant to remind him by the words ” Allah is the Greatest ” that you will still be able to communicate with him and will be returned back to him one day  :)

Life is Strange

When we were Little kids we wanted to grow Older and it was shown by the fact that when ever some one would ask our age we would tell we are 20 while we were hardly 5 or we would lie that we are studying in higher grades while we were students of Kindergarten.We would eat because our Mothers would made us eat just by saying if you won’t eat you would never grow older.
But now i have grown into a Man and now i wish that i Never had Grown Older. There is no good about Getting Older, Your Hairs start to fall off, You start to get fat, you start to have health issues, You have to worry about Future, Job, Wife, Kids, so there are only Tensions in Life then. Now i miss watching Power puff Girls , Courage the Cowardly Dog, I miss that when i was a kid i could pee every where i want😀 i had such a freedom in Life.
When we grow Older we found out Life is Hazardous , Either you worry about the Loved ones or you worry about your Loved Ones don’t worry about You. and both are the worst feelings. You start to feel lonely and yet to want to stay lonely to be Happy with your Self. Sometimes you just want your Life to End because happy moments don’t stay for long. If you want to party all your Life even you will reach a point you will be hell bored from Parties. Some people just want to sleep all day to avoid the ugly reality of the Life. Some people just go on drugs to be like Ostrich to ignore the Warnings of Life.
But with all that Ugliness in the life, Yet there are many reasons that make this life beautiful, its the other nature of the Human to strive for the perfection while being Imperfect. To strive for the Better tomorrow which is a bacon of hope, the radiant of Light in the world of Darkness. The tears of Joy knowing there will be only tears of Sorrow in the future yet living the Moment and Thanking the God for those short moments of Happiness is what makes the Life worth Living.